Today has happened alot of things which i wish to blog it out, and before this i hope to say that i'll be restraining myself from saying vulgarities. But if there happen to have, believe me it's just "humans reaction"

Had a quarrel today, and teared as usual. I don't understand alot of things which happened. Why is she reacting like this, is as if she doesn't care anything. She doesn't care whether Daddy will be angry and make the health worse and so on. From young, Sundays are suppose to be a family day & of course to go church on sundays.

We switch to night session is because Mom has work so only can attend at night, i think slowly turns into like family night is only at night, but this is wrong! By right sunday is sunday, AND i believe we have to stand firm to it right, this is our family it consist of only 4 person. And without each of us i think the family also won't be complete ISNT IT!

I'm still happy that she still make the decision of joining us instead of that outing, and seriously i still feel that is awfully wrong she hesitated and even twisted everything all around. I don't know why must she make everything so difficult even to our own family. It's so rude & disrespect lor. She just don't know what damage she has done just by doing all this. If she does she would have prevent it!

Here i'm trying not to worry my parents so much and there she is announcing to my parents what had happened, and she claim it as "THEY HAVE THE RIGHT TO KNOW" wth, yes certain things.. but then if one party is tearing and the other one is like black face, what is the scene?! will it be alright?! NO ! and worse still Dad thinks alot. What do you expect in the reaction ?! Blowup and make himself angry, is that what the fuck you want ? by all your reaction i believe so. SO DON'T FUCKING CRY WHEN THINGS HAPPEN.

Your temper is getting worse till i really cannot take it anymore, and we drift even further.
Never did we talk about our thing, everytime when i start the sentence with "you know" you would just rebuke me with "i don't know"! what is this ?! freak, by hearing this don't you feel irritated yourself!
Furthermore, when i'm in a serious mood. If like we are joking or what i don't mind that kind of joke, i just brush it off with rolling eyes, but when serious mood lei ?! I LOST ALL MY FREAKING MOOD TO TALK SERIOUS WITH YOU! and by this, i can't share anything with your or even secrets.
Oh wait ... will you be telling me you don't wish to know my secrets or feeling.
Alright then, THANKS man. Just tell me straight.

It's hard to communicate with you and your stupid temper. Don't blame it on genes. YOU IS YOU okay.
The more you blame it the more you depend on that silly theory of yours and the more you believe in it. AND IT DOESNT help in anything. If you are saying this is you. Then can i say i love bashing people up and i can bash you everyday ?! wtf. This is "genes" what. Dad do fight. Genes what?!

You just don't know how much damage you did, when one day you turn and see. The damage is there and can no longer be repair. Or there will be no chance to repair. By then who will be there for you? i won't know. I can't predict. I will be there for you but there's only a little i can do or even your friends do or even your kor can do. The rest you only can take it yourself.

Just stop your temper, is that so difficult? think of the caring from the family and all this before you blow up or compose yourself is that so difficult? i think we gave ample time and warn alot time already isn't it. Many incidences happened before isn't it? then why aren't you learning?

Making parents quarrel, making life difficult for family, making sister cry, making dad's health worse, making sister's relationship worse, ruin the family day, ruin family relationship, to rebuke just for rebuking is that what you want? in life?

I don't know.

Seriously there's another person i wanted to blog about. I think you should know who you are de la.
Keep helping Joey and don't let her grow up is that right? Sometimes as close friends i need some help instead of letting the close friend slap myself is that very hard, are you just helping her just for helping anot?
I'm sorry that i blamed you today morning but it's really very hard not to. You can share this with your other friends, which maybe you did, and i hope you didn't because this is sort of private.

I think no friends understand my family situation more then you do, and you keep saying you spoiling her then how come i still see the same thing, Mom spoiled her alot, and can see that she sort of "regretted" to be spoiling her that much, are you going to be the same?! Now she's showing no respect to my Mom is that the attitude you want to see in her? I understand that you don't have younger siblings and you hope to do all you can to protect and take care of them but stop spoiling MY SIBLING alright, i know sometimes i say things very harshly and very ruthlessly but it's still the TRUTH, nothing deny the TRUTH.
Maybe certain things you can at least hear my opinion instead of acting first or what, so that you can understand things better instead? Being good/sweet doesn't help anything. Even sweets harms the tooth.

I don't know the definition of close friends because i don't feel any special being close friends. But at least respect my opinion, that's the least?

Everytime we argue over something i don't know whether you actually consider it anot. Because there's no results. and what Joey said was right, i was being harsh to you sometimes, and i will reduce it, but sometimes i don't know you understand anot so i need to use harsher method. No choice ...

I think i have finished what i wanted to blog about. This is kind of my feeling.
& no matter what i'll still be there for Joey and love her. Just not spoiling her.
Think for those that are not concern can actually ignore it.
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